And then the resolve dissolves! Bad day today! I am reminded that I like food….not good food a lot of the time. I think this slip actually is the result of a realization Monday night. On my way home I was reflecting on the past month and the success I feel like I have had. I know that I am patting myself on the back a little too soon, but I have spent more days than not this month with my eating reigned in. Last night was like a slap on the face. I realized that the way I’ve been eating the last month is the new way of eating. I had something of a pity party for myself on the way home from work. I like food. I really like food and the thought of not being able to enjoy the things I like caused a moment of regret that I have chosen this path.
I think that last nights reflections have led to today’s nose dive into food naughtiness! I started off the day well, but crashed after lunch! Yep…two rounds of reeses pb cup mini’s after lunch. Then I just polished off a large sum of cookies. GRRRRR! I have been doing so good, then this. People will say that you need to splurge every once of a while and I am sure many would have encouraging words that a one day slip isn’t the end of success….yep I know. Thank you for the standard line. That isn’t the issue. I KNOW that a one day mess up isn’t going to screw me up. That isn’t the point. The point is that I still don’t have a handle on my impulses. That is going to take time. I can still be disappointed in my self. I’m not going to wallow in self pity, but I know that I still need to work on things.
Today was not a success. Tomorrow will be better.